Wednesday, May 21, 2008


My birthday is still over a month away, and already I'm dreading it. It's kind of a big one this year. I've never been one to shy away from how old I am, but it's hitting me hard right now that I am going to be as old as I am and have so little to show for it. I'm deeply in debt (home and student loans, the debt that everyone has, but I hate it). My career feels like it's on the downhill path. I definitely hit my peak a few years ago and have no sign of getting back to that point. I do not have it all.

So I'm just warning you. Don't wish me a happy birthday. Don't plan a party or lunch or dinner. I do not want to celebrate it. I just want to sit at home and cry about all the ways in which my life has not turned out the way I wanted it to. Thank you.

1 comment:

Meryl said...

Not to minimize your feelings, but really?

There are baby lawyers everywhere who would love to be where you are in five or ten years. And while the debt will always be there to a certain degree--the evil of going to graduate school, I'm afraid--you've got a lot to show for it. Not to mention, you've got a great guy and you look like you're 25....

Do you need me to go on?

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