Warning

My birthday is still over a month away, and already I'm dreading it. It's kind of a big one this year. I've never been one to shy away from how old I am, but it's hitting me hard right now that I am going to be as old as I am and have so little to show for it. I'm deeply in debt (home and student loans, the debt that everyone has, but I hate it). My career feels like it's on the downhill path. I definitely hit my peak a few years ago and have no sign of getting back to that point. I do not have it all.

So I'm just warning you. Don't wish me a happy birthday. Don't plan a party or lunch or dinner. I do not want to celebrate it. I just want to sit at home and cry about all the ways in which my life has not turned out the way I wanted it to. Thank you.